Have you ever felt like you gotta fit in with one group which causes 

you to not fit in with the other, and now you get alienated around the other 

group for not doing what they do? Well, if that sounds weird, the truth is, I 

do. I often feel like I gotta fit in with my culturally Bengali side despite

being “indoctrinated” into saying them in a very Americanized accent, which

people from my side hated. Trust me, when I would say I’m American, 

people would tell me I’m not, saying that I am Bengali instead. These same 

People would say, theoretically speaking, that “there is no America, only 

the United States of Israel.” I wouldn’t blame them though. I digress. 

         I would fluctuate between the pronunciations my local community and 

that of my “Indoctrinating” school system, with people at school using the 

More Anglicized forms of my cultural terms, like “Mus-lum”, and my local 

Community using “Moos-lim”. However, I spent more time with the people 

In my school because there’s barely anyone in my apartment building to 

talk to, which caused me to be used to the more Anglicized version of my 

Cultural terms, and I found the pronunciations of my community to be 

weird as a result. I also found my own language weird, which caused me to 

Only speak it to the adults in my community, but often times I hold back in 

Terms of speaking it.